31.12.2012
很快 又一年的盡頭了 不足一天的時間 就迎接新的一年了
這一年來 我一直在努力地嘗試 我以為我過得很好 沒了你也不過就是沒了你
到今年的最後一天 我才可笑地發現 原來這對我有多麼重要
原來從一開始 我就遠遠高估了自己 更加離譜地低估了你的份量
真的 到今天 我才發現它原來那麼沉 那麼傷 那麼痛 那麼難以釋懷
也許是不甘心 我不確定 我只知道好痛 傷疤那麼地腐爛 只是我一直不願面對而已
這會是我難以抹去的記憶 難以痊愈的傷口 更是一大隱憂
我想跟你面對面談 可是我們再也回不去 再也不會有這樣的可能性 真的再也回不去了
我想躲回自己的角落 有個讓我安心的避風港 讓我盡情地大哭一場 徹徹底底地宣洩一番 那就够了
我以為時間可以沖淡一切 原來那只是我小看它的重量 自欺欺人罷了
Monday, December 31, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
杂七杂八的
我会发着呆 然后忘记你 接着紧紧闭上眼 想着那一天 会有人代替 让我不再想念你
14.6.2012
一直以来 这一段歌词都很轻易地 触到我的泪腺 不知道它们之间到底有什么前世孽缘
就算是这一次 明明一副风平浪静的样子 我也不知道为什么它还是有这种功用
可能 现在的我 真的很不安 很不安
喏 所谓的不安 也是庸人自扰的其中一种情绪 至少在我的世界里 是的
明明什么事都没发生 最后的答案也还没有 预习失望 似乎是唯一的解释
如果 最终她的答案 是维持现状 而我的回应 是我不想要远距离
你会明白我的意思吗？那一个我不想要面对的情况
我不想要给这个最坏的打算 可是若前提如此 我的意愿依旧 不想要
是对你很不公平 我上一段失败的远距离 不应该是这一次不安的始作俑者
这一项败笔 造就了 远距离 不再列入 我字典里的可行行列 至少现在的状况 是 永不
这一次 可不可以自私点 我只想要对自己好一点
虽然现在我们都回不了头 可是 我还可以选择中途放弃你 很过分 我知道 当初为什要害你陷进来 自己也陷很深 可是却想丢下你自己落跑
我不想这个情况发生 可是 如果现状改变不了 我放弃 就算很没品 我还是不想要继续这一段远距离
Friday, May 4, 2012
I'm insane and I honestly know it!!!!
4.5.2012
Again..I know I'm insane..SERIOUSLY,I KNOW IT!!
After spending two weeks of honeymoon with him,I behave more crazily..yea,I'm kinda ADDICTED x)
This coming three weeks are the busiest and most packed weeks in this semester,it's gonna screw my life up..haizzz....sweetness before toughness always make life tougher.. T~T
But then,the aim of this post is to yell out what I've done in past few moments..which showing that I'm really CRAZY and MAD..hahaha LOL =D
That is...........
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After these non-humanize weeks,I'm going for honeymoon..again..with him of course XPPPP
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and be patient,the MADNESS wasn't come to the end.. =P
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How come I have time to go honeymoon?hmm..good one..it's my SWOT vacation..
What means??SWOT is the one week offs for us to study for EXAM...hahaha..ya..you din read wrong... xD
Means that I'm sitting my exam exactly on the day I come back from honeymoon..woohoo....good luck to me LOL x)
Fine..what I wanna say is...
Your appearance in my life is really out-of-expectation.
I underestimate the impact you might brought to me.
All things is a bit out-of-control at the moment.
Anyway,I don't care.What I most care NOW is the days with you and of course YOU!!
Luckily we are still young and still qualified to make WILD decisions.It's just because of YOU,I started drawing a MAD picture again in my youth-time,like how I used to be during my rebel period which I thought I had finished few years ago x)
Thanks for making almost-the-end of my youth-time out-of-control again.I'm glad to ever have you in my life,sincerely. =)
Okay..today's story-telling gonna end here..but the life is always >> TO BE CONTINUED =))
Again..I know I'm insane..SERIOUSLY,I KNOW IT!!
After spending two weeks of honeymoon with him,I behave more crazily..yea,I'm kinda ADDICTED x)
This coming three weeks are the busiest and most packed weeks in this semester,it's gonna screw my life up..haizzz....sweetness before toughness always make life tougher.. T~T
But then,the aim of this post is to yell out what I've done in past few moments..which showing that I'm really CRAZY and MAD..hahaha LOL =D
That is...........
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After these non-humanize weeks,I'm going for honeymoon..again..with him of course XPPPP
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and be patient,the MADNESS wasn't come to the end.. =P
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How come I have time to go honeymoon?hmm..good one..it's my SWOT vacation..
What means??SWOT is the one week offs for us to study for EXAM...hahaha..ya..you din read wrong... xD
Means that I'm sitting my exam exactly on the day I come back from honeymoon..woohoo....good luck to me LOL x)
Fine..what I wanna say is...
Your appearance in my life is really out-of-expectation.
I underestimate the impact you might brought to me.
All things is a bit out-of-control at the moment.
Anyway,I don't care.What I most care NOW is the days with you and of course YOU!!
Luckily we are still young and still qualified to make WILD decisions.It's just because of YOU,I started drawing a MAD picture again in my youth-time,like how I used to be during my rebel period which I thought I had finished few years ago x)
Thanks for making almost-the-end of my youth-time out-of-control again.I'm glad to ever have you in my life,sincerely. =)
Okay..today's story-telling gonna end here..but the life is always >> TO BE CONTINUED =))
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
I'm insane and I know it
11.4.2012
Current Location: Singapore
P/S: Such insane I am according to my bestie,such mad as I think I am.
Honestly,till this moment,I'm still wondering if I'm in a normal thought hehe xD
Everything is just CRAZY,it's QUICK!!What kind of feeling make me behave in this insane way huh..I'm wonder....is it kind of loneliness or really just because of LOVE....i duno..
Anyway...at the moment,I'm not REGRETTING.. :)
I like the way he bumped into me..although it is really too dis-realistic,at least for me..
I like the feeling I had on him..although for true,it is not that deep and obvious compared to..hmm..those I had before..
I like the high-speed relationship development in between us..although it is really CRAZY and MAD..
I like the dating experiences we had and creating onward..although they are little and maybe just temporarily..
I like the way you like and treat me..although I feel insecure and keep comparing with your previous one..sometimes..I'm jealous but I have no temper..it's danger..
For sure,we will have a great time in this 2 weeks,although you can't share with anyone else..I feel sorry for that..I will do my best to compensate you,I promise :)
So,let's dating hard!!
Current Location: Singapore
P/S: Such insane I am according to my bestie,such mad as I think I am.
Honestly,till this moment,I'm still wondering if I'm in a normal thought hehe xD
Everything is just CRAZY,it's QUICK!!What kind of feeling make me behave in this insane way huh..I'm wonder....is it kind of loneliness or really just because of LOVE....i duno..
Anyway...at the moment,I'm not REGRETTING.. :)
I like the way he bumped into me..although it is really too dis-realistic,at least for me..
I like the feeling I had on him..although for true,it is not that deep and obvious compared to..hmm..those I had before..
I like the high-speed relationship development in between us..although it is really CRAZY and MAD..
I like the dating experiences we had and creating onward..although they are little and maybe just temporarily..
I like the way you like and treat me..although I feel insecure and keep comparing with your previous one..sometimes..I'm jealous but I have no temper..it's danger..
For sure,we will have a great time in this 2 weeks,although you can't share with anyone else..I feel sorry for that..I will do my best to compensate you,I promise :)
So,let's dating hard!!
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Goodbye to summer break :)
26.2.2012
Here am I in Melbourne..after the summer break,a truly Asian holidaysss =D
It's time to say goodbye to summer break..and I would be glad to say goodbye to summer too..but the truth is always not as expected......
I was expecting a cool Melbourne to welcome my return....
In fact..it's HOT....hmmm..or maybe "fair" according to the pilot..LOL
and I'm just too tired....was not having a nice sleep in the flight zzzZZ @~@
So many more houseworks to be done..can I just ignore them and pretend my house is clean and fine? XD
Dad asked me about my gaining during this time back to M'sia when we're heading to airport..
What's the gain?hmmmm....weight obviously the largest winner..come on!!!!I hate you,FAT >.< but...the food are just asking you to be with them..how can I reject their sincere invitation?hehehe...
Guess shopping is the second largest one??hmm..heehee =) I have three parcel with my fren and three luggages waiting for me to unpack them..oh noooo..it's a lotttt x)
A sweet holidays with family for surely..might be started to miss them soon =\ such a precious time to spent with family..it's really Lots Of Love XD
Of course all of the outings with my dear frens!!You all really make me an awesome summer break..it's so appreciative to have all of you :)
p/s: and also,a crazy acquaintance with some freaking crazy decisions ♥
Fine..it's time go back to my houseworks.......see you soon x)
~每天开心~
Life will be going on,better and better.
Here am I in Melbourne..after the summer break,a truly Asian holidaysss =D
It's time to say goodbye to summer break..and I would be glad to say goodbye to summer too..but the truth is always not as expected......
I was expecting a cool Melbourne to welcome my return....
In fact..it's HOT....hmmm..or maybe "fair" according to the pilot..LOL
and I'm just too tired....was not having a nice sleep in the flight zzzZZ @~@
So many more houseworks to be done..can I just ignore them and pretend my house is clean and fine? XD
Dad asked me about my gaining during this time back to M'sia when we're heading to airport..
What's the gain?hmmmm....weight obviously the largest winner..come on!!!!I hate you,FAT >.< but...the food are just asking you to be with them..how can I reject their sincere invitation?hehehe...
Guess shopping is the second largest one??hmm..heehee =) I have three parcel with my fren and three luggages waiting for me to unpack them..oh noooo..it's a lotttt x)
A sweet holidays with family for surely..might be started to miss them soon =\ such a precious time to spent with family..it's really Lots Of Love XD
Of course all of the outings with my dear frens!!You all really make me an awesome summer break..it's so appreciative to have all of you :)
p/s: and also,a crazy acquaintance with some freaking crazy decisions ♥
Fine..it's time go back to my houseworks.......see you soon x)
~每天开心~
Life will be going on,better and better.
Monday, January 30, 2012
给亲爱的你
30.1.2012
不会有那么一个人与你"感同身受" 所有"我真的懂"只不过是安抚心情的一种手法
不是怪其他人 不是怨啥 这不过是最现实的事实
亲爱的 我很意外 真的 对于内心的那一块 你我都选择了这一种做法 也许这正是我们臭味相投的证明
很有默契地 我们都不过问太多彼此的经历 只是默默地关心着
我猜 你也抱着 "就让它慢慢淡去,不必一次又一次地重提"的心情 在守护你我的伤口
谢谢你 让我发现 原来我守护你的方式 莫程度上你也认同
一个人面对 也许很孤单 很无助 但在这一个阶段 对于我 这是保护自己最好的方法
顾虑得太多 交代得太多 曾经让我一度模糊了视线 连想法都没有了
现在总算是对自己有个交代 交代自己究竟在哪一个点上
嗯 至少清楚了自己的情况 打算? 计划永远赶不上变化 更何况是变化快且杂的女人心
我坦然地面对了自己的伤况 豁然一笑 我却还需要再磨练磨练 总会来到的
加油!!
~每天开心~
不会有那么一个人与你"感同身受" 所有"我真的懂"只不过是安抚心情的一种手法
不是怪其他人 不是怨啥 这不过是最现实的事实
亲爱的 我很意外 真的 对于内心的那一块 你我都选择了这一种做法 也许这正是我们臭味相投的证明
很有默契地 我们都不过问太多彼此的经历 只是默默地关心着
我猜 你也抱着 "就让它慢慢淡去,不必一次又一次地重提"的心情 在守护你我的伤口
谢谢你 让我发现 原来我守护你的方式 莫程度上你也认同
一个人面对 也许很孤单 很无助 但在这一个阶段 对于我 这是保护自己最好的方法
顾虑得太多 交代得太多 曾经让我一度模糊了视线 连想法都没有了
现在总算是对自己有个交代 交代自己究竟在哪一个点上
嗯 至少清楚了自己的情况 打算? 计划永远赶不上变化 更何况是变化快且杂的女人心
我坦然地面对了自己的伤况 豁然一笑 我却还需要再磨练磨练 总会来到的
加油!!
~每天开心~
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